or
extinguish
realize ecstasy
or fall into the depths of despair;
your fingers scrapping the paint chips off of the wall in frustration...
Procure submission by measured dominance
or falter through pointless vacillation
Nearly consumed with the last bout of the worlds depression I gently inquired as to how one would know what to believe in when it all falls apart?
Where are the white lines blurring, whirling by me as I drive precisely leading me to?
The strewn aged card sent to provide me with extended comfort states that laughter lifts;
hope coats
truth floats and lastly honor stands
and that you stand for me
by me
Redemption through recovered and shared memories
unified truths
righting a horrific wrong that seemed insurmountable before now
Dancing in the rivers water
drenched in tears of elation
knowing full well that the weight of my actions could very well drown me
like a child I hold my hands out to you in need of comfort
begging for you to know better
For we are very well of the bravest stock
our kind harvested throughout the years - culminating to this particular moment
One must stand so that the other might free fall backwards
in order to realize release
to return whole
It's time for me to go home
re establish place and purpose
be with you
trust
that I will be able to finally gasp for air
not choke
stumble and lose my way
Time was that the only light I could see was just beneath the door;
hear the breath of the water heater
and pray that you'd come for me
spare me one more second of fear
retribution
for being special
Special is only special until it gathers up speed and becomes loathing
To you
I was of you
simplistic in natures selection
Take me to the river
say the words
remind me of who I once was
tell me
who I will become
with you
Before the first kiss
you wrap your hands around my delicate throat
inquiring roughly
if I recall
how much trust is required
for the kiss
for the darkness to sweep over us both
Closing the eyes
removes the safety of that shimmer of light
the shield to ward off claustrophobia
relying 100% on your valour
Breathe with me
let your heart beat in time with mine
and trust
in the fallen
Once the darkness escapes us
you and I
shall soar back into the light
Saint and Sinner
harboring our shared secrets
together
bound for the 640th door
your voice
gruffly whispers into my ear
ever
so
seductively
Come now,
it's time...
He runs his hand down the script
carved into my back
reminding me that he will not allow us to turn back at any juncture
we are,
in its finality
our destiny...
Somewhat dark this go around...
Been alot weighing on my shoulders...
The truth is a wonderful thing, at times...
It can also turn your entire life into the biggest lie you ever imagined.
You do the best that you can with what you have before you-
but when it catches up to you- and it always does in one way or another-
free fall, trust...
quote from kb: "I don't want to start a flame in your heart; I want to set the world on fire"
She could've stolen that one, I honestly am not certain.
Thought it was worth repeating. For me it is both...feeling is paramount,
living numb is insanity to me....
From my hand to yours,
Sawyer
Saint Andrews
